Dreams are desires of the heart; Nightmares, my obsession. Erika When I have it close to me, I tremble. Of fear and desire. Michael Crist, my ex-boyfriend's older brother, is like one of those movies that, even though it's scary, you can't stop watching. Handsome, strong, and intimidating, I've watched him for years, wishing I was closer to see if what is said about him is true. He's the star of his university's basketball team, he'd never noticed me and he'd barely looked at me... Until no...